Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Confessions of A "Bad Girl"

Soo every now and then we all need to express who we feel we really are. In this case this person was touched and moved by a particular song that seemed to tell her story so vividly. Overwhelmed with mixed emotions our guest writer Dee chose to share how the message in this song related to her life. Explicit language used here

Is it bad that I never made love, no I never did it
But I sure know how to fuck
I'll be your bad girl; I'll be good to you
Cause I had some issues, I won't commit
No, not having it

Both verses that are displayed here are from Wale’s song titled “Bad”.  Here Wale puts a different twist on his version of what a “Bad” girl is.  Let me be the first to say that I never considered myself  Bad meaning all the guys want me, my body is banging, I have on top notch designers, I rock a 36 inch long weave and Christian Louboutin’s or Jordan’s.  You know the typical ”Bad” Philly girl.  Then I heard this song and had a moment of realization.  It was as if Tiara Thomas had watched my life on the silver screen and said damn she’s Bad!

So what exactly is a  Bad girl?  Well, she is not a loud, 36 inch weave wearing, Christian Louboutin / Jordan rocking chick.  Nope not at all.
A Bad girl is I. Yes, I have said it.  I am a Bad girl.  I have issues, I can’t commit and I like to think I know how to fuck.  
Where does my Bad come from?  I have yet to fully figure that out.  Did a man do me wrong and he taught me a lesson I have chosen to share with every man after?  Was it heartbreak so deep that it left me scarred? Or maybe it was that fiery independent spirit that did me in.

Let me tell you bout her
Look, she hurt feelings, she break hearts
She stay quiet, she play smart
She takes pride, in going out
getting hollered at & sayin nah
She’s no saint but don’t pose
She don’t wear make-up by the boat load
Riding through lake shore with her nose up
She don’t really date much but this slow up
She got haters, but we all do

As I listened to Wale describe more about this Bad girl it just fully convinced me that probably around he had met “me” How else could he know my secret, how else could he know my flow?
Even now as I listen to this song I wonder if I will ever out grow or stop being Bad or am I her and she is me for life.

Reformed Bad Girl

1 comment:

  1. Sound like her issues may stem from a troubled upbringing..and she deeply yearns for love and romance